My confession

I feel bad with my character...

I m bad....

i m so sinful...

i got no face to ask Him for the forgiveness...

Today, as usual, i was attending the Sunday mass...

I got no face to see Him even though He always forgive the sinner like me....

wat i did? i cant list out.... its alot!!

When i wan to grow up??!! when i can be more mature?? Why should i betrayed my soul and Him?

How many promises i had made with Him ald... Every Sunday go church asking the same thing onli...

Lord Forgive Me....

But? I didn't give myself a chance to change....

I m so helpless...

i m a complete loser... I cant work my talk...

I must change....

Forgive me God....

So sorry XXX XXX... I wont break ur heart anymore...

So sorry for the ppl i hurted..

sorry dad and mommy... i lie to you... i just dont want u to worry abt me... i will try my very best in this coming final exam... check it out man...

2nd of June

I dnt noe why why i m not feeling why...
i m missing someone man...
how come huh?
i m so blur.... i dnt noe whther my feeling is on right track o nt...
aiya... dnt ruang ruang xiang la... damn it..
ermmm... i smell the stress...
assgnments were given by the lecturers..
haizzz....
damn it... i need more rest man....
i hate stdy life... haha
finally the basketball court reopened againn...
tats great... my basketball life restarted again... haha
just now act clever.. didnt wear basketball shose while playing basketball...
now kaki injured liao lo.... haha
anywhere.. i was enjoy the game man....
wan to keep fit la... so that can get advantage when ply basketball...
oh....

1st of June

1st of June...
My family will be flying to China to have their nice holiday there...
hope they will always in God's care...
Econ class...
still in the blur blur situation when in class....
luckily i m a 'tian cai'.. hahaha....
she gave assgnment today...
wat the hell... my relaxing time shall be ended liao...
the question is quite confusing... but it's quite interesting...
hehe...
They all still the same man... crazy and funny... especially Jovi and Ashley, keep talking something nonsense... haha... RC cheat, this girl hot tat girl hot.... haha.. damn funny....
our class was full of fun becoz of them... ofcoz i m also the one of them... ahahaha...
ya... left 3 months onli... i should appreciate the time with them... after that i may change to the other college to continue my degree..
they are good man... haha...
Ah Chiam... this fellow... borrow money havent return... and then havent make payment 4 the penalty.. damn unlucky... have to pay 4 him... wat the hell!! i m not rich!!
when will he return me money? wat the F**k... angry...
i wont be so kind anymore... borrow ppl thing... no more...
lets forget abt it.... be happy man... haha
hope he will reply my call as soon as posible man....

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hi... i m back...
quite a long time tat i never touch my blog since last month..
onli one word can describe abt me- lazy..
i was get stuck into the slam dunk anime..
untill i spent my entire afternoon and nite on watching it..
finally, i finished watching liao..


31st of may, the last day of may and the stupid day 4 me...
i had no idea abt wat i have done..
and i dnt noe wat am i afraid of...
i spent my entire day in KL alone to run away from call...
i swear i will never do it again..
a job with commision but without the basic salary... and yet,
we have to pay 4 the t-shirt some more. tis is not the reason also...
4 what i see it doesnt have a good market also..
though the commission is high.. but no point... insecure..
havent earn money alry spending money...
i have no experience in tis kind of product also...
wat for to spending money in learning or get experience?
i got a lot of choice wat..
it it not the onli option also!!
so, luckily i was run away... praise God 4 giving me strength... haha

aiya... lets 4gt abt it... tell u abt wat i i done in this wonderful Sunday... haha
no need to go church coz i went evening Mass on saturday liao...
haha...
29th of may, saturday...
according to my plan, i shall go to the evening mass to ensure the whole sunday was free and smooth...
oh my God.. i m not a good Catholic... haha
but i felt so well when i was in the evening mass.. the church was full filled by ppl...
tat was totally out of my expectation... force to sat at the up stair...damn it!!..
anywhere... thank be to God.. i felt the power of the Holy Spirit...
its true la... even though i m not the holy boy...
haha...
ok... after tat went Jon's place to had dinner in Bangsar village...
tat was so expensive!! but seriously the food is nice...
and i knew a 'Guai Lo' or 'Ang Mor' or Mat salleh from US de....
haha
he was Jon's frnz actualli...
his ang mor damn Geng... i was actualli used to speak in English alry... but then...
my was like frozen tat time... speak like orang cacat like tat.. wtf!! haha
walao eh... his english damn Geng... exactly the same as the western movie...
haha
then spent one nite at Jon's luxury condo 4 my convenience later early morning...
haha... thank u Jon... provide me a nice and comfortable plc....
hehe... Terima Kasih( Ur mum is gay-pakistan native language) ahaha...
so ... early sunday... start my journey to walk arround here and there...
cant forgive Asyraf and Thiba... put me aeroplane... wat the f**k!!
haizzzz.... Sungei wang is the 1st target to go....
secondly.. time square.. damn boring... see a lot of couples.... wtf... damn jealose man... haha...
it remind me sm past... tat was bad....
finally tak boleh tahan le... and i had reach the time i set 4 going bck...
the whole sunny day have been wasted man...
haizzzzzz.....
sepnt money waste time waste energy... wat the hell am i doing man....
its ok... i will never simply promise something in doubt.. think properly before decided amthing!!
a lesson of my life...

17th the last

feel like the time is like a river, u will never get when it pass by...
i m glad that i can spent my 3 weeks holidays here with my family and friends...
everything were arrange in order. Even though felt boring in home but i m still appreciate...
becoz, i dnt think i will have much time to live with my parent since i was getting older alry..
today is the tired day.. carry the big stuff here and there.. thank God, i reach my place safety..
tomorrow will be my 1st class of the Final Sem... its a new start and the end of my foundation course..
i promise myself that i will try my very best to make myself proud outside.. and then
change to a better college to continue my degree...
cant wait to meet all my friends tomorrow.. Hehe... Happy open sch!!

i m still alive!!

no idea so far.... haha
ermm... all i know is i m back...
tat is nothing happend today...
evrything are so good and lazy...
i wish the time can fly fast a bit so tat
i can go bck KL...
BP is nice actualli...
so peace and so calm.... the air is nice compare to KL...
but, is boring man...
i m like a death guy sitting infnt of the laptop playing the old version championship manager...
LIFEless...
i dnt think they were all free... just dnt wan to disturb their lives... and second, to save my pocket...
left 15 bucks inside my wallet!!
still waiting for the promise to realize....
m i a guy??!! waiting for her to date? hmmm...
she may have others thing to do i think... just dnt wan to disturb her...
and, i dnt think i can win her trust anymore... i m so dumb!!
haizzzz.... i m a bad guy....

when everything was under control, i tell u something will happend...
anywhere... i m not angry with tat... and all i hope is the news i heard are false...
if it was, so what? i will forgive her.... realli....

Intro

Hi.... Nice to meet all of u who are visiting my page right now...
Because of her, i decided to create my own blog to talk about my life,
my mood through out the day.... lets stop talking nothing now. Welcome to my blog...
Let me simply describe myself.
I m a simple and funny boy. Actually i have no such habit to write blog. My life is full of privacy. But i also dont know what privacy business are cause as u know i m a forgetful guy. Haha.
Then i decide to write down the things i had pass through all the time. Especially the time with her. It is meaningless when we don't even know what each other thought and experienced.
Well, beside my beloved one, and also my beloved friends!! Haha..
I will never forget the time we spent together during our crazy and funny secondary school time!! I love u all.... Through this blog, i hope that they may know my new life in KL. I m please and willing to share my condition here with them. Yaya.. Imagine when we live without a true friend... It would be miserable.
The photo above taken when we were celebrating Khoo's birthday. It's full of joy!!
Welcome!!!!